Burn Party

I need a Burn Party to rid myself of all these little rules I have about what I should and should not be doing. All its doing is stressing ME out. So the bottom line is fuck what everyone else thinks because they will judge regardless. From this day forward I will be putting every effort into living my life for Amber because YOLO. That's right I said it, YOLO. And I don't mean doing stupid things I will regret down the line I mean I'll be living my only life for me and no one else.

Unpopular Opinion

I have always been a fan of unpopular opinion and the person to always bring it up. Got into a huge debate over an issue that majority felt differently on than I did. I usually give into other people's viewpoint trying to have an open mind but today I stuck to my guns. I probably put a bad taste in some people's mouth but I really don't care. I am really good at sticking to the rules and if you break them then you should be prepared to face the consequences. I'm not real accepting of people who break rules so I may appear heartless.

I got tried really hard today but I am not going to let that get to me. I am really proud that I went hard in the paint in something I believe in and did not back down like a little bitch. People will try you. Anyway I'm not sure how they feel about me now but I feel great about myself and I am NOT changing my viewpoint.

A very special thing

I feel the need to put myself on front street. During my short time in Mississippi while was I was on my way to Texas I had a very deep conversation with my Aunt Angela about God. Talking about religion makes me feel uncomfortable and afraid that I will be judged. I have not been to church regularly nor prayed in years.

When I was 12 my parents converted to Taoism. They have allowed my sisters and I to make our own decisions on the matter while educating us on different religions around the world. My 15 year old sister is making it a point to read the Bible before she chooses not to believe in it. I applaud her efforts. She is doing something I have been too afraid to do. I only remember the Bible from before I was 12. Up to the age of 12 we went to Church all the time. My parents were devout Christians and we only listened to Gospel music. All of those 90s artists such as Tupac, Biggie, and whoever was out at the time I had no knowledge of them. I still to do this day cannot relate to the hype or the songs that were put out. I was very involved in church as a child and had many childhood friends there. Then one day we stopped going and I never did question it. Secretly I was happy not to go because I did not like sitting through the sermons. 

The conversation with my Aunt Angela has really had me thinking. This conversation sparked because she asked to pray for me for my surgery that I'll be having this summer. She asked me if I believed there was a God. I hesitated to answer her for fear how she might judge me and finally said that "if a lot of people believe in him then there must be a God." Yes I know that answer danced around my opinion but I have to protect myself. She dug a little a deeper until I said "Does it mean that I have to believe in God too the way Christians believe in him?". Those are my real feelings on the subject. I'm not a horrible person. I hold the same morals and values most Christians do I just don't practice Christianity.


She gave me her testimony on how she developed her relationship with God. I won't share because I feel like its private and special. In the end she told me if I ever chose to question if God is there then I should be careful in how I ask because He could make it painful or good. After the conversation she did something really special for me, she prayed. 


I'm not sure what direction I want to take my life in religiously but my Aunt definitely had an effect on me.

Fall 2012

So I have changed my major to Computer Science. I know that will push me back but I learned that I hate business with a passion. I'm in college for me and no one else. I'm so excited about this major change and anticipate good things to come from it. I've signed up for 3 classes in the fall which are all 4 credit hours each.

In order for this semester to be right I'll need a boo and Drake near me at all times. Drake's music puts me in a special place and will keep me sane.

To Do List:
-Work about 2 days a week
-Manage Money Better
-Get Tutoring
-Time Management
-Join UGA NAACP chapter
-Successful LD Programs
-Make more friends
-Stay Healthy

AGP 2012

I crossed Fall 11 in the Lambda Delta chapter at UGA. This year was my first AGP and I had fun overall. I met so many Sorors, Indies and other D9 greeks. I was too broke to buy any nalia but it was great looking at all of it. I plan to make up for it as funds become more available. Next year we plan to book a room at the host hotel and only go to official parties.

The Sickness

At age 8 I was diagnosed with Peutz-Jeghers Syndrome (google it). I've had several surgeries regarding it and a routine colonoscopy every 1-2 years. I recently had one this past semester which turned out okay. I also had a Small pill capsule (again google it). I learned the results means that I have to have a surgery and a biospy done all this summer! My biggest concern is that I get it done by fall semester. I absolutely cannot miss this semester. It would hurt me.

The Job

I have a job in the IT department in the Terry College of Business at UGA. If you search the Terry website you find a photo of me (yay!). I am a student worker IT assistant that provides support to the faculty, staff and graduate students of the TCB. I absolutely love working with computers and this is by far the coolest job I have ever had! If you ever have any computer problems I'd be able to happy to fix it for you at a small price.